I stepped into marriage expecting that he would make the bed every day, bring me a perfectly made cup of tea each morning, and vacuum the floor all the while encouraging me to put my feet up and rest. That’s how I thought my husband would show his love for me.
To be completely truthful, I think I expected him to know my needs before I even knew them. I wouldn’t have admitted that but I had HIGH expectations of married life based on my own fantasies and the fairytales I had read.
I didn’t see that when he filled up my car with gas in the frigid cold, he was showing me love. He knew this California girl would have a hard time standing out there. I just assumed my car never ran out of gas.
It’s gone something like this . . . “God I’ve been praying that you would make yourself known to me, that I would see You. I need to know that You are real and working in my life. I feel so distant from You and even further away since I prayed this prayer. I had a friend call me, out of the blue to see how I was doing and to pray over me but where were You? Why aren’t You answering me?”
Never realizing that it was God who moved in my friend’s heart to call me and to pray over me, I missed the way God was loving me and answering my prayer.
As Your child, I accept Your love for me, in the way You CHOOSE to show it and to LET GO of the expectations that hinder me from seeing Your amazing work in my life.